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willingvanessa 26F
374 posts
6/25/2019 4:38 pm
Willing, consensual humiliation - mm4w, Part 1

Hey y’all. So I had promised at the end of my last blog, that that was just the beginning for me. I’ll do my best to explain what happened after I started receiving and responding to the very erotic emails from the stranger who had convinced me he had been with one of my girlfriends.

Obviously for me, sex is both a physical as well as a mental experience. That should be pretty clear given how much I write about how it feels for me, and what humiliation does for me and to me. So as I am reading these emails that I believe are truly my friend's secret sex life, my mind really gets excited, and I start to crave wanting to know even more and wanting to experience even more than I already have which was pretty decent at that point in time. Having been with two men, being DP’d by them, being tied up during sex, etc. But if she was having a crazy wild sex life, then I definitely wanted one too and wanted to experience even more than her. I hate being outdone y'all.

But at that time, I didn’t have a guy who fucked me on a regular basis. Just casual fucking with whomever I happened to hook up with at the time. I was actually in a bit of a dry spell so when I got all horny and worked up from reading these sexy emails, I ended up venturing on to Craigslist looking at ads to see if anything caught my interest. I had never done that before, had no need to. Guys hit on me all the time when I'm out, and I have no problem hooking up, but I was interested in something more than just fucking. I had no idea my Dad had found his ad to humiliate me on Craigslist a couple weeks before and decided to give it a try all on my own. I saw the m4w ads which there were tons of but nothing caught my attention. Lots of cock pics though which is always nice to see. I made my way to the mm4w ads bc there weren’t nearly as many of them and bc they just sounded wilder which was what I was looking for.

That's when I came across an ad describing willing, consensual humiliation. I attached the ad here in my post so y'all can read it for yourselves. The idea was for me to feel what its like when other people know secrets about me, and I hopefully get to experience what happens when people know secrets that nobody else knows. It definitely caught my attention bc it sounded a bit like blackmail which I have always been turned on by and sounded risky and exciting. So if I was willing and consented to it, I would place myself into a vulnerable position to people of my own choosing, that I know. My sexy pics and sexy secrets, fantasies, dreams, desires would be provided to the people that I agreed to have them provided to. But I wouldn't know when they were provided, or to whom they were provided, or how much was provided. Once I provided the pics and info to the men behind the ad, then I would have to just wait on pins and needles to see if anything would happen and hopefully it would. But I wouldn't be in control of it. First the men behind the ad would and then whomever they sent the pics and info to would decide what to do next, if anything.

As you can imagine, it was a crazy mindfuck when I found out that my Dad was somewhat behind the emails that were turning me on and getting me to confess a lot of my sexy secrets. And those emails got in to my head and got me on to Craigslist where I actually searched for and sought out my own humiliation. But the craziest part was when I responded to the mm4w ad for willing, consensual humiliation, I found out about a month later that the man behind that ad was the same exact man who had written the ad that my Dad responded to and had been working with my Dad on me for the last month. That stranger wrote two humiliation ads on Craigslist. One that my Dad replied to in hopes of humiliating me and one that I responded to where I agreed to, consented to and was willing to experience being humiliated by them.

Now I can only imagine what happened when that stranger saw my honest request to give the willing, consensual humiliation a try. I mean he had to think it was impossible or maybe it was just fate??? Could it really be the same girl??? I mean, maybe he felt bad about what he was doing, tricking and deceiving me into revealing private stuff with the help of my own Dad, but once I responded to his second ad requesting humiliation, then he must have really felt justified. And I can only imagine what my Dad thought when the stranger told him I had replied to his other ad. My Dad must have been like, wtf? Are you kidding? Are you sure? Is she really in to this? And the answer was a resounding yes, she is. Here is her email as proof that she wants it.

I think at that point, they must have just both taken a deep breath and said, lets really take this slowly and enjoy every bit of it and see how far we can take her. She doesn't have a clue her own Dad was supporting the success of the first ad and now her Dad knows she is seeking humiliation from strangers online? Let's take this nice and slowly and make sure we give her the humiliating experience she is really seeking.

Anyway,I respond to the ad, lying about my age, saying that I was older than what I was so the men behind the ad would take me seriously. At that point I'm so hoping they will give me a chance to try it bc it sounds so fucking hot to willingly place myself in to that position. I mean honestly I would love to be in that position unwillingly, where people know stuff about me or have sexy pics of me and I have no idea how they know or how they got them, but this was going to be a close and safe second. I mean I was going to provide everything that I was comfortable with and I was going to provide the contacts so what could possibly go wrong? It was all completely my own choice, my own decision. I wasn't being blackmailed in to it. I was consenting to it. It wasn't like somebody was hacking my phone or Instagram or Facebook and doing it to me without my knowledge. I had full knowledge of what was going to happen and was excited to give it a try.

So I ask what I believe is a group of men to give me a chance because I really want to give it a try. They let me dangle a bit which is probably bc the stranger and my Dad were talking everything over. Eventually they respond, reminding me of what is involved. I am in full understanding that it requires sexy pics that my contacts will recognize are me, as well as sexy secrets, fantasies, dreams, desires, etc.

At the time, I don't have a clue what is going on behind the scenes in the emails between the stranger and my Dad, but I am sure it was something like, hey, you were ok with us lying to her at first to get her to reveal her sexy secrets as long as you got to read all of them. Do you want to see how far she is willing to go with this humiliation thing? If you're fine with it, I mean she is your after all, I am going to play with her, have some fun with her, and you can sit back and just watch what happens. And I imagine my Dad agreeing that since I requested humiliation, after all he's seen my emails by that point for sure, he was fine with the stranger humiliating me as long as he got to observe it.

Once the men behind the ad decided to give me a chance, I am super nervous, super excited, turned on, scared, anxious all rolled in to one. I can’t decide what to provide or who I don’t mind it provided to. I had plenty of sexy pics but had to decide which ones. The men told me to take my time deciding and even offered to take the pics of me if I needed that. Honestly that sounded hot to meet with what I thought was a group of strangers for them to take pics of me which they would in turn provide to my contacts. I thought about it seriously, but they reminded me that if I chose that option, the pics and poses would all be of their choosing meaning very revealing and very explicit so that I really feel the humiliation that I was consenting to. I decided to go ahead and provide my own pics.

When I make my mind up to do something, there is no stopping me. I send this anonymous group of strangers three pics of me. One with my face wearing lingerie, one of my boobs in lingerie, and one of my ass in lingerie. I also give them the cell numbers of three men who I know and trust. I am so excited at that point not knowing what was going to happen next and not being in control. I asked if they thought the pics were fine or if they needed more with less clothing. They told me they were fine but it was completely up to me how much I was comfortable showing. I couldn’t hardly stand it and went ahead and jumped in even deeper without them asking me to. I sent four more pics all on my own. Two of me completely nude from the neck down without showing my face, one of my shaved pussy and one more of my ass in a thong. I decided if I really wanted to experience this which I really did, then I will just go for it.

I think they were pretty impressed at that point with my enthusiasm for the whole idea, and that they didn’t have to work that hard to get sexy pics out of me. They complemented me on the pics but told me I needed to write something in my own words for the men I chose. So I did. Something so they knew it was all real and not just a prank. This is what I wrote.

"Hey guys I know you’ve seen and possibly heard some things about me that you never thought you would see or hear. Just so y’all know everything you have seen or heard is me and I willingly gave up that info exactly for this. Also whatever info you give up or me I’m ok with so I won’t be mad or anything about it. I wanted to be exposed and give up control and this is exactly what I’m getting so I’m also willingly giving myself up to y’all for whatever way y’all wish. I will not resist or object anything you say or do as I am completely yours."

At that point it was out of my hands. I was so turned on that I had done it and was hoping for anything but I wouldn’t know if, when or to whom what pics were provided.

Do y’all have any idea what it feels like when I’m around these three men, in their presence, texting, talking with them and not knowing what they have seen or read? It made me feel so small, so helpless, so powerless, so vulnerable. I couldn’t dare ask them bc what if they hadn’t seen or read anything? They didn’t say or do anything and I had no way to know if they knew or not and if they knew were they just not interested or just wanted to make me squirm. I knew what I had done. Did they know? Did they know that I knew they knew?

I hate to admit it but one of the men I provided the cell number to was my own Dad. I thought it would be fun and safe to tease him. About 2 days in to the whole thing was when “they” really started fucking with my mind and I really wasn't expecting what was going to happen next.



Dreamcatcher__ 87M
7020 posts
6/25/2019 8:14 pm

Some girls just can't stop having fun.

I admit I have favorites among your little obsessions, but all of them are pretty hot. There was another girl here, Danielle, who captured the hearts of a number of the would-be dominant boys on alt. I hope you succeed in garnering a similar following, Vanessa. You've got a good start.


willingvanessa replies on 6/26/2019 9:07 am:
I am having lots of fun. This was the best decision I have ever made. I do have a following of dominant and wanna be dominant boys.

tinyboy69 64M

6/26/2019 12:11 am

i love your blog thank you


willingvanessa replies on 6/26/2019 9:06 am:
Thanks. Glad you like it.

Artschoolgrad 46M
8441 posts
6/26/2019 4:36 pm

adventure is always good. very inspiring.


willingvanessa replies on 7/22/2019 8:47 am:
Thank you.

PushingLimits789 54M
49 posts
6/26/2019 8:51 pm

Hot! Looking forward to the story continuing. Would love to have control over a sexy little doll like you. So much fun to be had making you dress in revealing outfits and showing off your body in public and be a free use sex toy.


willingvanessa replies on 7/22/2019 8:48 am:
Oh yes, I absolutely love all of that. Mmmm

wlkt11 60M

6/27/2019 8:25 am

Great blog


willingvanessa replies on 7/22/2019 8:48 am:
Thank you very much.

Sucker4Ever 112M
6750 posts
6/27/2019 2:04 pm

Hello V! You're such a sexy little thing! Your story has my dick dripping, and I almost came in my pants, twice! Good thing I don't mind licking up cum.
It was your kinky sordid story that got me so excited. But I have to admit, a couple very perverted ideas that came to me while reading it, added to the pleasure. I would like to tell you what they are. Interested? I can tell you here if you like, or here's an idea . . . You can leave me your personal email at my private blog post. Either way, you've got my kinky perverted juices flowing, and now, I want to mind fuck you raw!

“Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself.”


willingvanessa replies on 7/22/2019 8:50 am:
OMG, I can't believe you almost came in your pants twice. Damn that's hot or me to imagine. Please tell me your most kinky ideas here. I love it being out in the open and I have to respond to it. I want you to fuck my mind raw and have my mind fucked raw. Can't wait for what you've got.

doingitall4yu 66M
321 posts
7/19/2019 10:50 pm

Great story and experience! No doubt you are hot as hell, but you need to show more! You should post the seven pics you mention in your writing, & add to te collection on a regular basis! You have a lot to offer, let's see if you can live up to it!

Serve me!! It is what you crave! jdxafn at hot....


willingvanessa replies on 7/22/2019 8:53 am:
You can see all of my pics. I have 21 posted and some are sprinkled in my blog. You can see my face, my tits, my pussy, my ass. Its all out there for y'all to enjoy and get off to. I've got a surprise pic coming in my next blog that I can't wait for y'all to see.

Sucker4Ever 112M
6750 posts
8/12/2019 11:29 am

Hello Again, Sexy V!

I have been off site since I left you last message. Just wanted to let you know, I still intend to write to you on this.
Stay kinky, and I will be back!

“Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself.”


willingvanessa replies on 8/23/2019 12:11 pm:
Hi there. No problem. I will definitely stay kinky. Its in my DNA. I'm looking forward to you fucking my mind raw like you promised me you would do.

Incognitomaster 52M
717 posts
3/25/2021 5:45 pm

Oh My Gosh! This is such a hot story! I am sorry to be late to the party, just haven't found your blog yet.
I think if I would have been one of the three men, I would have loved watching you squirm after I read the message from you, and after a few good weeks of that, I would have shown you the pictures in any public place. A shopping mall, where there are lots of eyes and you don't know if anybody looks in our direction, to see the picture.... I would then tell you what I would do with that lovely body of yours, so that I do not spread the picture around. Do you want to hear more? Feel free to ask

When you come to a fork in the road, take it.

__Yogi Berra


willingvanessa replies on 9/11/2021 8:00 pm:
Squirming is the best part.


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