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My first blog - please be gentle So here I am, looking start a blog. The main reason being is because I want share my journey and experience into this amazing kinky world. It has been quite a journey over the passed 2 years since I was introduced. I want to tell my story and share experiences. So where did it even begin….well I don’t think I have the best introduction. It was through a man (lets call him Dickwad) who wanted a dominant woman, he made believe that I was suited for that role. I am not saying I am but reflecting on that time in my life, I was manipulated, used and moulded be someone else’s fantasy. I was so desperate be loved and needed that I let this individual turn into someone who he wanted, striping me of my own identity. Rather than wanting to explore and try things together, it was about him dictating how I should act, what I should wear and do…doesn’t make me sound like a Domme does it….but this was my experience and I allowed it to happen to almost a year. He would tell me exactly what he wanted and how a woman should dominate him, and I obeyed him. I was on a high thinking I was pleasing him, and I was getting pleasure because I was pleasing him. It wasn’t until I met another couple on Alt (they know who they are!) that things started to change. Instantly they both saw I was being used and manipulated, they also instantly saw that I had a very strong submissive side, which I had never been able to admit before. I won’t go into the full story however long story short; I owe a lot to my friends who helped me through quite a painful point in my life but saying that, there is a silver lining. What this relationship did teach me was that I had found a world where it was ok for me to be truly embrace the feelings I had always been pushing down…that fantasy about having someone own your mind, body and soul, those feelings where your role is to serve and be served, that other fantasy about being cuffed and gagged and denied. The list could go on forever! Most importantly though, I had found a world where everything was accepted. In the vanilla world, I was always single and was called all sorts of things – needy, possessive, full on, to name a few. Whenever I met someone, I would give them my all, I would literally offer not just my body but also my mind and soul to that person…unsurprisingly men ran away SO fast. I then was exploring Alt, and speaking to my friends (mentioned earlier) which made me realise how much I identified as a submissive. Saying that, I wasn’t ready to give up my Domme side, as actually I did really enjoy the fact that through this role, I was in complete control of my own pleasure, and the role of the man was to do everything in his power to please me. I finally rid myself of Dickwad and fast forward year and half and I am the happiest I have every been. I am with an incredible man who is a best friend, boyfriend and Master. I am fully exploring my submissive side and cannot wait to see where life will take me. More to come about that! Thanks for reading 😊 All comments welcome. |
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hello , it sounds like you had a 'perfect' topping from the bottom experience . would be interesting to think further about it . might be the kernel for a novel be good M
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Very refreshing to hear that a bad experience has resulted in a happy ending, so far anyways. I tend to meet way too many subs that are being taken advantage of by the Dominant they are with. Of course it does not matter how many people tell someone that she is in a toxic relationship, until she accepts that reality and decides to do something about it, nothing will change. Wishing you and your Dom all the best in your lives together!
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11/10/2019 9:58 am |
Well done! Sounds like you made some great changes.
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and you tell it well...Nice job for your first blog
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This lady writes well. Indeed she does. Keep blogging - you're a welcomed addition to the neighborhood. Make Women Female Again
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Welcome to the blogs. Good you have found or are rather are finding yourself. We all evolve over time. No matter how long you have been in this arena. Best to you. "One Big Sky Covers Us All Equally"
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Welcome......that first experience does shape what's to come.
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its nice to hear that your happy
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11/10/2019 11:05 am |
reflection is a powerful thing, although you have come through the other side better for it. You sound very settled now with direction so im happy to read your on your way
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11/10/2019 11:33 am |
We all have a story to tell and I am so happy yours has a lovely ending or is it a new beginning? sara xx
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11/10/2019 1:58 pm |
well written and a well told story,you're a welcome addition here enjoy the journey
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11/10/2019 3:03 pm |
Nice read. Good luck with the blog
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"Let's call him Dickwad!" Goodness me that made me hoot! What a very unpromising start to your journey but what a great start to your blog! I look forward to reading of more positive adventures. Welcome to Blogland.
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11/11/2019 6:14 am |
Congratulations, i am so happy for you , that after such a bad experience its all come good for you!,
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life is short live your life
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Congratulations on finding the true you and someone that loves you for you
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Welcome to the blogs
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love it. superb and u are now reaping the rewards... keep it up x
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12/1/2019 4:05 pm |
a great first blog, keep it up.
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Great post hun!
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Great start keep it up lol
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