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PerfectPussy86 37F
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4/13/2020 3:18 am
Why am I struggling to understand and be patient the subs I had before I met my Master…


So a few subs or friends I met through Alt has been in contact recently, but if I am honest, they have mostly annoyed me - no reflection on them, this is 100% me. That more submissive man, who would come running whenever I requested, or who needed that help, support and guidance, just does nothing for me. And I know why…because I was “playing a part” when they were serving me. I wasn’t doing it for the right reasons I don’t believe. In fact I was the one who desperately needed the help, support and guidance.

Don’t get me wrong, I definitely have that Domme side but it isn’t the kind and caring Domme from before. I feel like my true self has been let out and the fantasies in my mind are far from what I did before. In fact, I get off on the complete opposite but those are for another time.

Funnily enough, Master and I had discussed playing with another sub, with me as a Domme. Initially I was so excited but as reality set in, I felt nervous. I was more focusing on making sure I pleased everyone else rather than myself…this in turn made me realise I wasn’t ready. Being the ever-supportive King, my Master saw it wasn’t the right time to push me. So fantasy parked…for now! Right now, I am not ready to explore these extra fantasies in my Domme side. I am 100% focused on serving my Master.

I feel whilst the progress I have made as a sub is great, I have so much further to go. My journey is just starting. I am still finding my feet and need to learn how to fully let go and give all of myself. My body wants to but my overthinking brain still tries to hold me back.

So going back to reason for this post. Basically, I have come to realise that people are always changing and emerging, especially in the BDSM world. It is very exciting opening my mind up to new and wonderful things. Idea’s thought were just awful last year, now make my pussy wet and clit pulse as thought of them. So sorry to those who served me before, sadly you don’t do anything for me anymore but you were all special to me in your own way.


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