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The next step
Posted:Nov 22, 2008 6:41 am
Last Updated:Aug 1, 2010 12:50 pm
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Now that I have found a center, and realize my own strength, and my weaknesses ,, i realize that in order to grow i must move forward, but i have questions,
Can i fix the things from my past that i wish to carry into the future with me... Not everything can be fixed,
One very important thing i have learned is the need for peasants,
and the need to accept situation for what they are, , how else can we learn who we are and take responsibility for our action if we can not view them clearly.
I think part of being a good Dominant is learning to be in sync with where the people are around you , in the past i find now that I have not been and the results in the end where ones needs over the other,, trust was destroyed and respect lost , time and peasants are to only aids th heal these wounds ,
being n sync with other peoples need i believe helps you to be able t gently guide them to where they need to be, to find there centers and yes this is a skill that needs to be learned , to often people tend to put there needs above the needs of others, Is that being a responsible Dominant , no, but it is human nature,
fortunately who we are can change as it is within me ,
one think i also work very hard at is not defining myself as anything , but just being who i am, letting others provide there definition, not allowing myself to be trapped behind a roll created in the mind , this aids i clarity of thought for me ,and lets other see the Dominance i have lost in my life fore so long ,
So now I ponder many things , and slowly time help aid in the decisions that take place,
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Aware
Posted:Nov 7, 2008 6:19 pm
Last Updated:Nov 7, 2008 7:47 pm
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I am aware. I am not the thought, not the mental static. I am what lie beneath, the background to the thought. there is only now and I feel life all around , In my travels this day the world unfolds with new brilliance's and wonder, The birds on mass dance in the sun as they preform an ballet threw the air. there is peace of mind, a clarity, a silence within. The world has a transparency , a different quality, a deer approaches from across, a Field, soon there is another, i watch in wonder as these two creators nervously approach, they are watching me.
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broken wings
Posted:Oct 18, 2008 11:51 am
Last Updated:Dec 13, 2019 7:47 pm
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This morning when i got up i was having a difficult time ,, i found myself worrying over where to get the money to keep going on my battles, trying to get this off my mind i got up and got on this silly computer, looking for someone to talk to ,, I noticed a very Speacal person to me was up and on line , i asked her why she was up and she said she was not feeling well ,,, I asked her if she had any meds, and she said she had painkiller ,,, so on my way to work , i got her some Tylenol and drooped it of ,,, at the doors she asked me to come in and we talked briefly ,,, seeing her sit there on the stair with the morning light flooding over her face ,,, i could not help but think as we talk ,,, "my god how beautiful she is, i was looking into the face of an angel , as the light bathed over her and i looked into her eyes i realized how much she has given my , and i kept taking and taking and taking ,,, and what did i give back, i gave her my pain,,, my hurt , my sorrows ,, until now she is empty ,,, how pitifully i feel ,, this beautifully woman , how now have broken wings ,,because i could not pull my head out of my ass and stop ,,, i see my pain in her eyes instead of the love i once seen ,,, i see the hurt i have given her, I know i have sinned ,, I hurt a gift from god , i very speacal woman , my god what have i done ,
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Moving on ,
Posted:Apr 17, 2011 11:47 am
Last Updated:Dec 13, 2019 7:48 pm
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hello , some time has past , many things in life have changed some for the better some for the better some for the worst , but that is life, its what you make of i.
Funny thing is ,, i have recently take the roll or Daddy/Dom again , really that was my beginnings and what i am finding is how rewarding it is , not i am not sure if it is becouse it is bringing back found memorys of a person that was very speacal, or it is becouse its e true nature , i guess time will bring these answers , wit hit however i find myself lifted , with renewed anergy to tackle things i have been putting off , funny how that works isn;t it
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Who am I
Posted:Oct 17, 2008 3:22 pm
Last Updated:Dec 13, 2019 7:47 pm
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Hello, At this time in my life I am looking deep inside myself , after years of turmoil and stress I am looking once again at-the thing i hold close to my heart and truly believe in , they are truth , respect, and honesty ,,, the triad of life in my mind , you can not have one without the rest , break one they all fall apart, understanding this is one thing , living it is another , and i have found at time in violation of these principles myself , so time to get back to basics , life as i have preached , set an example of what i believe in , these thing are thing that must be worked at always ,, and never forgot or taken for grant it, with all this i am looking forward to getting out finally and making new friends,
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