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Posted:Apr 2, 2019 8:19 am
Last Updated:Jun 2, 2019 11:45 am

Through a lot of therapy (kink friendly) and help from my Mentor, I have dealt with fear of my ex.

I was afraid to discuss and post a true post mortem of what really ended our relationship on another site I am more active on.

Finally I figured it was time to side with the women he had broken consent of while we were together, behind my back.

I did not name anyone, had a foreward that stated that if anything is done to me as he had done to exes in the past that my family has deeper pockets than him and he would not win. I further stated that I would never disclose his full name, phone number or address to any of his many haters - |I am not petty.

Then I stated the reas I ended our relationship 7 months ago.

He obviously read it as within days he posted a photo of some random slut wearing the collar I wore and it was called an old and useless collar.

My god how I laughed. He had just called his own collar useless, to which I could not agree to more. I believe it was a ish way to get a jab at me but all he did was insult his own symbol of ownership since that collar never belonged to me anyways. I had to unfriend the common "friend" who liked that photo as it showed in my feed so that is how I saw it in the first place, but his attempt to somehow insult me as he cannot go against anything I posted is laughable.
How to not lose your slave...
Posted:Mar 21, 2019 6:50 am
Last Updated:Apr 2, 2019 8:00 am

I am writing this here as fetlife is too public a space...

Don't take her for granted. Tell her how beautiful/sexy/whatever she is once in 2 years.

Don't turn her into a piece of meat - even though she maybe a masochist there is more

Don't ignore her sexual needs - a beating turns her on - take advantage of that

Don't complain about the distance - she lived where she lived when you met her

Don't talk about honesty and transparency and then go behind your slaves' back harassing and doing non-consensual stuff with newbies in the communities - the truth always comes out and it will disgust your slave and make you not so great looking in her eyes.

Brought to you by my last relationship
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Posted:Jan 8, 2019 6:04 am
Last Updated:Mar 15, 2019 8:06 am

So, one of my greatest pleasures is giving a good throating.

Is it easy? No. You don't just get good at it without practice.

First off, whenever I brush my teeth I brush the very back of my tongue. At first this was impossible as I would gag, but with time and patience I learned to supress the reflex. Yes I still choke on food, but not cock.

Next step is suck a lot of cock with you in control of it. Push it back further into your mouth as you get used to it and get used to the feeling of choking on it. Soon you will also be able to mentally and physically overcome the reflex to gag on that cock. |Editted to add forget practicing on dildos - they arent natural and they wont react like a live cock will

Throating means an open mouth...wide open so get really good at covering your teeth with your lips and tongue...once that is mastered, its only a matter of time before you can take a cock down the throat and take the pounding of your life. If you have a kind partner they will automatically pull out of your throat to breathe or if not just don't panic...a tap on the thigh is usually enough for him to stop fucking for a while to let you get a couple of breaths.

Don't panic when your air is cut off - just go with it, focus on the rhythm and you will find you can get little throat beaths in when he pulls out a bit to ram your throat again.

Finally, your throat will be sore the next day - accept it and smile.

Release request accepted
Posted:Sep 13, 2018 6:15 am
Last Updated:Feb 13, 2019 8:29 am

So, yes, again i was the one to end things with my D type.

Deep down if i am honest, there were trust issues. i was sick of hearing about the distance between us physically...i lived where i live when we met. If it was something he couldn't deal with it should have come up at the start. And his ideas of how to deal with it were not something i would put up with.

So i requested release, over and over in a conversation. Having to repeat it over and over again got tiresome and i finally just ordered it...he asked for time to consider, and i asked him why...not exactly fair to me.

So i am single and feeling okay about it. My decision was the right one. He may love me to bits and i may love him but love just ain't enough sometimes in the real world.

So i will take the right amount of time to grieve and then move i always do.
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Posted:Apr 27, 2018 4:25 am
Last Updated:Feb 13, 2019 8:28 am

Sometimes we make decisions that others in our lives do not support. i did that when i decided to get back together with my ex-Master.

Was/Is He perfect? Nope. Neither am i...

We always had a very open relationship where anything was on the table for discussion, and that has only increased. We are open communicators nothing is hidden and its going pretty well.

Honesty is not an issue- i don't lie or keep things from Him and He is open with me even when it stings a bit. Are there some growing pains as our relationship grows and evolves? Yes of course, but that's to be expected.

i tried to convince myself i was done with Him but it did not quite work.

So, judge away if you will.
Is reconcilliation possible?
Posted:Mar 8, 2018 8:17 am
Last Updated:Feb 13, 2019 8:27 am

A lot of break ups are filled with mutual animosity and anger.
Our break up was due to me not following through on things i was ordered to do.
Kinda makes for a different possibility of reconciling.

We have spoken daily, my ex and i. We still love another a lot, still want to be with another and make things work. i have been working on the things that i was not following through on and that is a step in the right direction for me as well as us.

So unlike the typical metaphor i use when people talk about getting back with an ex, this may work. Take a piece of paper, crumple it up and then try to make it totally smooth again. Impossible. But since there is no animosity between us it might just be worth it. We shall see...
What the hell am i doing here?
Posted:Feb 19, 2018 4:44 pm
Last Updated:Feb 13, 2019 8:26 am

i don't know

i am not looking for anything at all right now - even harmless flirtation squicks me out right now. Went through a painful break up last week and am still emotionally raw.

So, if i don't respond to you or your message, don't take offense...

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