I didn't screw up having sex when I did so much as trusting the wrong person. After all, if he says that he has a condom and you watch him put it in, you think that it'll be okay. Of course, he didn't use it the second time....
I was sixteen when I had my and my life changed, both for the better and for the worst. My is my world and I would do everything for her but her father, that's... that's where life gets to be a problem. It could've been a lot worse and he's a good father, we just don't love each other. We're married because of our and that's the extent of it. It's why I'm not surprised that he's cheating on me with someone else. I'm not even mad about it, truth to be told if I had to think about it.
I've had to think about it because I haven't been with anyone else. We first met when I was 14, got pregnant at 15, gave birth and got married at 16 and now, I have to think about my actual love life again and not like I was still in high school.
I'm not against meeting people on here but that's not why I'm here exactly. I'm here because I wanted a place where I could simply experiment and get my thoughts onto somewhere that's just my own, where I can write about the fantasies I have that I've never actually spoken aloud, where there's no judgments, where I can figure just why I have the thoughts that I do without paying the money I don't have to a therapist that isn't on base. I'm also a little drunk so who knows.
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My Ideal Person:
I don't have one
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